- so, here you are again
standing on that same, terrifying precipice
you love it up here
you always have
but it scares you
it rattles your bones and freezes your brain
until you can’t move
you feel as if the walls are closing in
you forget to breathe
and then a laugh emerges
a light breeze, letting you know how alive you are
in this moment
and you realize
you can’t give this up
you could stay here forever
terrified and ecstatic all at the same time
on the edge of emotion everyday
they never said life would be this complicated
they said it’d be worse - i remember the way the atmosphere shifted
when we realized we weren’t worth the effort
the timing, the place
but i’ll never stop loving you
i wont forget your face
or the way the sides of your lips wrinkle when you laugh
your eyes get so happy
i wish i could see that side of you again
with me - its hard to know somebody
like the back of your hand
because when they walk away
you no longer know how to touch
how to feel
you no longer recognize that part of yourself
it has now disappeared