the hardest part

As a teenager, I struggle daily with “little things.” Things like friendship struggles, boys who won’t matter in a few months, etc…drama I so easily get sucked into. I am someone who loves to pretend. I love to act like nothing bothers me and that I’m above feeling down about something that is so meaningless. Here’s the kicker though: everyone else is doing the same thing.

The reason the “little things” suck us in is because they serve as an easy distraction from our higher purpose. We constantly are searching for a way out, a way to shirk our responsibilities. We know our days on earth are numbered, so why not do what we want while we can? Why don’t we be reckless and not care? Life’s too short.

That’s the hardest part. We want to experience everything life has to offer us, but we get dragged under by all the stuff everyone and everything else seems to be shouting at us to do. Life surrounds you with its chaos and clouds our judgments. We become indifferent to the voice of God telling us to slow down and take a walk with Him. We shrug Him off. What we humans fail to realize is that this ignorance of Christ actually hurts Him. He loves us and sent His Son to die on the cross to save us. He wants all of us to walk with Him in this life so we can spend eternity by His side.

I fall under temptation constantly. I’m a sinner, through and through. I have realized the only way for me to achieve true happiness through this mess is to trust in the Lord and His plan for me. I ask that he gives me patience and ask for His forgiveness when I turn down the wrong path. I am learning and working on taking a step back and not becoming what this world wants me to be.

“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.” –Romans 12:2

mornings w/ Jesus

Yesterday, I was first introduced to Young Life campaigners by my friend Nat Simkins. I was nervous because it was my very first time going with a lot of new people. But, I left feeling rejuvenated in Christ because I was influenced very heavily by something we discussed.

After we read a passage, one of the leaders asked us where we felt the presence of Christ most in our lives. For some reason, mornings were the first thing that came to my mind. I suddenly realized that mornings are one of the great ways Jesus shows us His blessings and power in our lives. When you wake up, usually you’re still groggy and would love to just sleep the day away-especially when school starts back up. We never realize how lucky we are to be able to live another day. We take our days for granted and typically do not live them for Christ. This doesn’t make a lot of sense since He is the one that gave them to us…so why wouldn’t we praise Him for it? We continue to be greedy with our time on earth and not give back to God. We dedicate all of our time to friends, having fun, jobs-all of which are awesome to have, but time for God gets lost. Everyday when I open my eyes to another day on this earth, I am going to try and learn to thank Jesus for another day to give back to Him. I will start my day thanking Him for the multitude of blessings He’s given me-my amazing family and friends, a roof over my head, plenty of food, an education, etc. Most importantly, I will thank Him for never leaving my side and always being a constant presence in my life, no matter how many times I push Him away.